Beautiful Reminder

My journal entry for the night. :) 

You are constantly proving 

that You don't need my help.

For years, I poked, prodded, & pushed toward 

an ideal, toward a checklist, toward hypothetical perfection.

I desperately yearned to see change,

so I resolved to make it happen.

I desired it, waited for it, anticipated it, expected it.

But I was let down. 

Devastatingly.

Then out of the blue, You hit me with the realization that

You are the one to design & initiate transformation. 

It's not up to me.

And all of a sudden, 

I see how You were preparing this all along. 

I'm out of the way & You have room to work.

He absolutely flourishes,

and in Your perfect timing.

My plans were many, but Your purpose prevailed.

I rejoice in the beautiful reminder that I am free from

making people into who they "should" be.

I'll just watch You work with who they are.